Destiny

 I cannot turn it off. It runs constantly at high speed with no end. Tried to go to sleep at a reasonable hour, ha!! I am not complaining mind you, it is a drug, a cool drug, one I have been on all my life, maybe even intravenously. It is adrenaline, pure and simple. It is intensity, focus, I guess hyper focus, but in a holistic manner.

I can see the beginning, the middle, and the end, and all the little bits and big bits in between. Take a movie, play that movie over, and over, and over so that every piece of it is known to you, play it in an infinite loop so that it becomes background, and then superimpose life on that background such that each day a little piece of that movie, that total story, is being played in the foreground while the whole movie loops as background. It is never gone, it is ever present, it is constant progress toward an end, like our constant progress toward death, the movie plays and progress is made toward the outcome.

No one knows what the outcome is but me, and I know it with certainty. Different people, different members of this journey will catch glimpses, and will slowly have the outcome revealed to them, toward the ending that is already written, but none will know for certain, at least as certain as I do, until they come face to face with it, and then they will see it, realize it, as if they have just been bolted awake by a lightning strike. It is in that instant, and only that instant, that the moment will be captured, and the outcome realized, or it will slip away and be altered forever.

It has been written.

Thank you for again for getting this far with me.

The Best

Michael Jordan was the best basketball player to ever play the game, and it was not even close. He brought unmatched skill, unmatched athleticism, unmatched basketball IQ, unmatched intensity and desire to win, unmatched leadership ability, all to the same point for years.

Tiger Woods is the greatest golfer ever to play the game, even if his assault on Jack's records is halted by the issues he has had the last couple of years, he still has duplicated or exceeded many of Jack's feats already and done so with the exact same set of skills I listed above for Michael.

Wayne Gretsky anyone. Ken Griffey, Junior.

I am a sports fan and so I can list these guys and if I wanted to take the time list all of their accomplishments. The same cannot be said for other fields, but I do know that there are people, Like George Winston, greatest pianist to every live, or play, or entertain. There are people who could tell me the name of the greatest neurosurgeon on the planet. The best physicist, the best rocket scientist, we all jokingly refer to this entire group of people all the time, "well he is no rocket scientist," "he is no brain surgeon," but the fact of the matter is that there are bests in each and every corner of this planet, each and every profession, vocation, hobby, there is the best. Even eating hot dogs really fast there is someone that is the best, and by the way that is gross!! The hot dogs I could eat a few, the wet buns, not so much.

There is something that everyone is supposed to be best at, from being a dad, to being sloppy, to being funny, sorry Robin I didn't mean to forget you!! Yes Jeff Foxworthy is funny and has apparently made the most money at being funny, but Robin and his fifteen minute tangents that come back to the middle of the same word he left, wow, but speaking of tangents. There is something that everyone is best at, or at least should be.

I wish I knew what mine was, and I wish I had known a long time ago, like at the beginning of my life, or maybe at the age of two, or even at eighteen, or twenty two would have been nice. I know what everyone else thought I was best at, and I know what I was "supposed" to be best at, and I even have some ideas what I am best at now, but I just have never been sure. Too much time doing who knows what for who knows whom, and too much time pretending I was good at something to the point that I was a pretty good pretender, but not the best!!

Even if I figure it out now I will not be able to do it for forty or fifty years like some that I know, my dad for one, Sage for another. Not exactly sure what they were best at, but I know they knew, and they were.

Find what you are best at as early as possible, or convince your kids, your grandkids, strange kids in the street...maybe not...that they are going to be best at something and help them get there. Some people are even best at that.

Thank you again for getting this far with me.

Once Upon a Time

Incense
Candles
Fireworks
Parades
Hiking
Skiing
Running
Biking
Cooking
Laughing
Joking
Traveling
Ocean
Beach
Body surfing
Reading
Cleaning
Shopping
Sleeping
Watching
Talking
Greeting
Mowing
Grilling

...and then you wake up one day and the you you have been all your life is no where to be found.

Thank you again for getting this far with me.